LJ Idol 11: Week 0: Introduction

AN: I know I missed the deadline I just still wanted to post this up to let people know who I was.

A Rambling Gal Rambles On

Most of you would probably remember me as rswndrlst. Others might only remember me as Codenamewanderlust Some may have suspected I was also flyingsockpuppet. My friends and lovers have called me Sparrow. My grandmother calls me Rebecca. 

 

I decided to start anew with a livejournal that more accurately captures my current state of being.

Somewhere between boiling water and steam vapor. Liminality. 

 

It’s been six years since I sat down to write my first Idol intro entry. I still remember it like it was last Thursday. I was doing laundry in-between stringing words into sentences. I hadn’t yet turned 30. Saturn had returned to the place in the sky where it was when I was born. I was free! Freewheeling in San Francisco, flowers in my hair, walking for hours and hopping on the muni on a whim. Restless wanderer.

I live on the opposite side of the country now. Putting down roots in central Florida. The oddly shaped limb of my fractured family tree.
 

I sling corporate coffee and wear ugly comfortable shoes when I'm on the clock. I actually drink coffee now, not tea anymore, except iced tea (with lemonade).

 

I feel stuck, as they say. I’ve stalled out at the intersection and I’m just sitting on the hood refusing to stick out my thumb because maybe that’s not who I am anymore. I'm not really sure who I am or who I was ever meant to be but I am here. I am still here and who knows where I will be in another six years.

 

Idol always seems to start up again just as I need it, the writing practice, accountability, consistency. A reason to spill it all on to the page…